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*See last post, otherwise you won’t get the title*

I get to be at home with my family tonight, because unlike some, I’m not dead. The same obviously can’t be said for everyone (duh). Now here’s my problem:

Indianapolis recently lost two very young men in EMS. It was the first time a line of duty EMS death happened for Indy. They were in an accident with one other vehicle, the driver of that car is fine.

What I’ve read so far is that the ambulance was speeding, and so was the other driver. All that crew was guilty of is driving fast when they were not on an urgent call. The girl driving the car that struck them however was speeding, had been drinking, and was paying attention to a gps instead of the road.

I feel that if the tables were turned, Tim and Cody both would’ve been jobless at the very least and the city would have been sued until it couldn’t be sued anymore. Their families will never lay eyes on them again, they don’t get to go back to work, they can no longer do what they loved to do. Despite what some may think and act like, EMS is a public service that doesn’t pay anywhere near well enough, and the people who work in this field do it because it’s what they love.

This girl’s BAC wasn’t half the legal limit, so no drunk driving charge. There’s nothing being put against her aside from a citation for running a red light as a matter of fact. Anyone else in this situation would be in jail awaiting a manslaughter conviction. Had she hit a police officer, they’d do everything they could short of executing her.

There was a case in 2009 where it was apparently ruled that running a red light is not considered reckless under Indiana law. WHAT THE FUCK INDIANA!?! Had she been the one that died, things would be different, and nobody better dare try to tell me otherwise. You all know I’m right.

There is a very blatant lack of respect for EMS, and it needs to stop. Drinking is not the only issue here. Two very skilled men with IEMS lost their lives, and nothing is being done.

I am absolutely shocked. Legally drunk or not, she was under the influence. She also admitted to something that falls under reckless driving, but no charge. All she gets is a traffic citation…..

It’s scary to think that this could be me one day. If it is, my husband and my son will have to go through hell to see justice, and I don’t want that for them. It’s just not right…



A. The amount of homework I have
B. Women
C. Prisons
D. Welfare
E. Line of duty death in EMS
F. Parenting
G. DHL and how horrible they seem to be

That’s all for now.

Yesterday, on my way out of mc donalds, I caught part of a news cast that was showing footage of a funeral for one of the officers Chris Dorner killed. It was one of the most heartbreaking things I think I’ve ever seen. There were upwards of 5,000 uniformed men and women that went to that service. It looked absolutely beautiful.

Now here’s the opinion part of this post:

I read Chris Dorner’s manifesto thing a couple of days ago. The things that were described by him sounded horrible to say the least, but did not surprise me. I know quite a few people throughout the state of California, and have heard some terrible things about the LAPD. If what Mr. Dorner said had any truth to it, I feel for him, because to have things like that happen and nothing be done is ridiculous. However, the way he handled it was completely out of line.

If he wanted to be the picture of what he thought an officer should be, then freaking out and endangering the public is NOT the way to handle it. Killing those officers solved nothing. I do have to admit, I’ve had my share of run-ins with cops that I didn’t think should have their badge, but those few in no way speak for all police. It’s people like Dorner that make a bad name for police forces everywhere. All it takes is one person to change things and make a person have a negative view on an entire group. In the same way, it also takes just one person to restore faith.

I had to call the police ages ago just for the simple task of getting my stuff back from an old roommate. The officers that were sent spoke to my then boyfriend and I about the situation, ran our information like they had to for this type of call, asked a few basic questions, then helped me get my stuff. Those same two officers showed legitimate concern for the both of us, and were about to help us find somewhere to stay that night. I wish I could remember their names, because I’d love to call them and just see how they’re doing these days.

I was once a person who didn’t enjoy being around police, but that one encounter completely changed my opinion. Since then, I’ve run  into other officers that are absolutely upstanding people, both personally and professionally. I hope that one day the world realizes that officers are people too, but this isn’t just a job for them. They run the risk of going to work and never being able to come home to their families again, and they do so without hesitation.

My point is this: Don’t let one  incident or one person ruin your view of a certain group.


I took my son out for a happy meal yesterday, and caught CNN on the way out (at least I believe it was CNN). They were showing footage of a service for one of the officers killed by Chris Dorner. In thinking about it, that news cast sparked an opinion, which I’m posting later tonight. I’d do it now but my phone is almost dead and I’m typing this via word press for android.


It’s been a bit since I’ve posted anything substantial, and for that, I apologize. I had a big, long, drawn out opinion post on the current state of things that I was thinking up, but it never happened. I woke up on Christmas eve and read the news first thing, like I always do. What I saw was extremely unsettling, and is still bothering me every time I think about it.

I didn’t know them personally, but two fire fighters in West Webster, NY were killed in the line of duty that morning. It wasn’t the fire that got them, but a deranged man with a gun. All they were doing was their job, which was totally volunteer. Four were fighting a fire, and only two went home. In the midst of all of this (and from what I know), there were two other fire fighters and an off duty officer injured. The fire was set as a trap apparently. They got there and were killed trying to save lives. Here’s why it bothers me so much:

I decided a while back that because of the particular facets of public safety I’m interested in, I’d have to become a fire fighter. (I’m a bit of a chemistry nut, and the hazmat stuff is amazing to me). Public safety is already a dangerous job as is, because you don’t know what you’re dealing with when your tones go off. You could have the world’s best dispatcher, world’s best police, world’s best anything working with you… but they’re only human. Even they don’t know what you’ll be up against; especially your dispatcher. As supportive as my husband is of my chosen career choice, it scares the shit out of him. He already wants me to be able to carry a weapon on duty, and is amazed at the fact that we can’t do that. This incident didn’t help matters.

My heart hurts. Like I said, I didn’t know these guys, but if it can happen there it can happen anywhere. It was Christmas eve for fucks sake, and they didn’t make it home to their families. Christmas will forever be somber for their children, wives, siblings, co-workers, and everyone they were close to. On a lighter note, I came across an open letter yesterday posted by that districts chief, so here it is: You can see it at

Thank You Message from Chief Deisenroth   January 4th, 2013

The West Webster Fire District family would like to extend our sincerest appreciation to our loving and caring community. We are enormously overwhelmed with the generosity of each and every one of you and as unbelievably amazing as you have all been, we should not be surprised. We have witnessed the true meanings of honor, community, brother and sisterhood, and family. Our family extends well beyond our firehouse and our community well beyond Webster!
To thank you all for each and every gift of love you have given would be impossible as we are still learning of the many ways people have shown and continue to show their support. You have visited our home with cards, monetary gifts, food and drinks, flowers, candles, teddy bears, plaques, hand-crafted crosses, drawings, and even coffee and treats from Abbott’s. Facebook Groups have been formed by many to show support, share comforting words and pictures, and even arrange for transportation and housing for the funeral services. We notice signs in front yards and we see your flags are lowered. We notice when you tell us to be safe and we know those words hold more weight than anyone could ever explain. We appreciate each and every person who stood outside to watch the funeral processions and every vehicle that stopped on the side of the road. We saw flags waving, people saluting, hands over hearts, and we have seen so many tears. Each and every one of you not only reminded us but also taught us what it truly means to be a strong and loving community.
Brothers and sisters came from all over, including other countries, to pay their respects and to share in our grief. Each and every one of you not only reminded us but also taught us what Brotherhood/Sisterhood truly means.
You have prayed for us and with us and we know that you will continue to pray, as will we.
“Thank you” doesn’t begin to express our appreciation to all of you. Please know that the good you have all shown will always be remembered and cherished by all of us. You have truly honored our brothers!
We would like to extend our sincere thanks to the various media outlets for respecting the wishes of the families through this difficult time. We appreciate them working with us to make sure the highest level of respect was shown during all of the events that they attended.
May you all have a safe and happy 2013.

James Deisenroth
District Chief
West Webster Fire District



Now that the whole new year thing has sunk in and what not, can I go to bed? Seriously… I HAVEN’T BEEN TO SLEEP YET.

More to come later, as I have actual sentences to speak.
– Kayleigh

Thank you to my friend Anthony for inspiring my title. He wanted to cover all the bases, just in case the world really does end.

Here’s that opinion I said I’d give the other day: Whiskey tango foxtrot?

Sandy Hook – That’s got to be one of the most god awful things I’ve ever heard about a person doing. I had just taken my son to see his new school and get him signed up when I heard about it. I mean.. who would shoot up an elementary school of all places? I believe that Adam Lanza was deeply disturbed, and needed more help than what he had; if he even had any to begin with. I also believe that nobody will ever really know all the whats and whys of that situation, because unless you see shit for yourself, how can you? Now for the opinionated part: as horrible and tragic as this was, I don’t feel a weapons ban will solve a fucking thing. The gun did not commit the crime, the person committed the crime with a gun.

Connecticut has some of the strictest gun control laws in the country, and those laws didn’t prevent this man from killing innocent children. No law has ever prevented a person from committing a crime of any kind. The only thing I feel is broken in the system as far as guns are concerned is that things change depending on what state you’re in. Like here in Indiana for instance, someone with ‘crazy papers’ as a friend of mine called them, can still get a gun believe it or not, but just isn’t allowed to carry. You can also purchase at 18, but can’t carry until 21. There are loopholes out the ass, and those loopholes don’t need to be there. Then again, crazy or not, someone could just up and decide to shoot me if they want to. I don’t know because life is just like that, nobody knows what will happen 5 minutes from now, let alone the next day. If a person wants something bad enough, they’ll do whatever they feel is necessary to get it done, even if it means violating the law, or violating the rights of another person.

There are already plenty of mental health services available all over the country. Part of the issue there is staff within some of these places, and patient compliance. There are people in this world that don’t know what to ask when discussing their treatment, so they just say nothing. Not saying anything can be dangerous though, so for the love of God please educate your patients! Answer their questions if they have them, and point them to whatever resources you can think of. I honestly think that if the medical community at least tried to appear like they care more, that would solve a lot of patient compliance issues. People don’t do things for others simply because they want to anymore, they do it for a fucking paycheck. You can’t just throw pills at a person and expect the meds to solve all of their problems. They work best when used in conjunction with therapy. However, medicine is a practice and the public needs to understand that medical professionals of all types are people too. No one individual knows everything, no one individual can solve all the problems of the world, and no one individual is by any means a super hero. No treatment of any kind will work instantly, because things take time.

As a society, we’ve become extremely narcissistic, lazy, and about as impatient as people can get. We want, want, and want some more; and don’t care what happens to everyone else as long we have those things we think we need for some reason. Before we begin to fix anything, we need to take a look at ourselves. There’s not a damn thing wrong with the government, the issue is the people.

In short, we all need to start giving a fuck. Even it’s something small, do something nice for someone. That one small thing could make a big difference.

*I’ll eventually be expanding opinions more, when I have time to do some more research. I’m a person who believes in the second amendment. There’s a legal gun in my house, and it’s staying here. At some point in the future, there will be more legal guns in my house, and I intend to keep every one of them.